With a new baby on the way the question has been asked by my sweet husband...to homeschool or not to homeschool? I don't think as a teenager or even college student I could have ever imagined how difficult it is to make decisions that WILL effect your children for life. The stress is immense...I want so badly for God to just write his plan for each of my children out in an instruction manual that I can follow in detail to ensure I am leading them down the path designed for them to become awesome caring intelligent full of faith trusting in God men of God...but instead God gave me and Shawn these children to raise.
So let me tearfully place these thoughts out there for mom's like me...
Staying at home with my kids the past two years and schooling them has been one of the biggest challenges of all of my life. Its very difficult to maintain patience, I often give myself time outs and because I don't have "evaluations" I am lead to be the chief evaluator of myself. I am unsure if I am "doing things right" and constantly feel disappointed that what I am doing is enough. Surprising coming from a woman lead by The Lord and living consistently feeding on God's word right?
What I have discovered is that I am and will always be who I am...my weaknesses, inconsistencies, insecurity is all part of God's way of showing off through me...he takes them and makes them into a stronger than I think, constant, secure amazing mom and teacher of my children.
SO the thought of my children attending public school...brings tears equivalent with a waterfall. I see it as my failure to school my children...inconsistency in their life and it plagues me at the thought of someone else teaching and influencing my children...
I have read the statistics of homeschool, private and public schools...I have read books on each...I've taken numerous college classes on child development...and still...there is not enough information for me to make a decision homeschool, public or private that makes COMPLETE SENSE...so I'm trusting in my husband and my Heavenly Father to make his ways known...for now...I will tearfully prepare that my children may be going to school next year...and attempting not to have a nervous breakdown.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Saturday, February 2, 2013
The joys of boys
Boys can be so sweet...I wonder if I have a little girl how different it will be. My boys can be rough, disobedient and headstrong....and also sweet, and cuddly, and caring...all in one hour... :) Here are some thoughts on my boys
Ben:
My oldest son. At 6 years old Ben is sweet, caring, helpful and loving of his family. He has an immense heart to feed the hungry and it's a passion that consumes his thoughts. After raising money for both food banks, volunteering at the Keyser Food Bank and leading a drive of rice bowls filled with change for the children in Haiti in the past year Ben STILL desires to do more. I feel blessed to have him in my life. Part of Ben's passionate personality create a desire to NEVER stop talking (for those of you who know my hubby you can understand where that comes from) and a lack of control with his STRONG emotions. Whatever Ben is feeling...you know he's feeling and usually in a loud way full of non verbals.
Jacob:
My second oldest son. Jacob is the most snuggly, squishy child you will ever meet. He is a man of few words and lots of love. He loves to do dishes and clean the floors. In Jake's world its mostly all about Jake but he is such a lover and giver to his family. Jacob is my golden retriever; loyal, loving, bigger than he thinks and desires to constantly be played with and around people. Someday Jacob is going to make one fine hubby...especially with those dimples glaring...what sweetness he adds to my life.
Evan:
My baby boy. At almost 2 Evan is easy going and sweet with very little outburst. He loves to play with choo choos and climb. Evan makes every day fun and full of adventure
Ben:
My oldest son. At 6 years old Ben is sweet, caring, helpful and loving of his family. He has an immense heart to feed the hungry and it's a passion that consumes his thoughts. After raising money for both food banks, volunteering at the Keyser Food Bank and leading a drive of rice bowls filled with change for the children in Haiti in the past year Ben STILL desires to do more. I feel blessed to have him in my life. Part of Ben's passionate personality create a desire to NEVER stop talking (for those of you who know my hubby you can understand where that comes from) and a lack of control with his STRONG emotions. Whatever Ben is feeling...you know he's feeling and usually in a loud way full of non verbals.
Jacob:
My second oldest son. Jacob is the most snuggly, squishy child you will ever meet. He is a man of few words and lots of love. He loves to do dishes and clean the floors. In Jake's world its mostly all about Jake but he is such a lover and giver to his family. Jacob is my golden retriever; loyal, loving, bigger than he thinks and desires to constantly be played with and around people. Someday Jacob is going to make one fine hubby...especially with those dimples glaring...what sweetness he adds to my life.
Evan:
My baby boy. At almost 2 Evan is easy going and sweet with very little outburst. He loves to play with choo choos and climb. Evan makes every day fun and full of adventure
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Hooray for a fixed Blog!
Hooray my blogger works again...after months of trying to get it to load and discovering what was wrong I am ready to Blog again...HALLELUJAH!
So this is what's going on in the Twigg Family household....I am once again expecting a little bundle due July 4th and we are ecstatic...and nervous. Whether it's the nerves, the hormones or a combination of each I have been sick, irritable and extremely tired. The good news, baby looks great and boys are excited and the campus doesn't seem to consider it a problem for us to stay here in our comfy little apartment so we truck on for now.
Christmas this year was peaceful and beautiful with a new addition to our family Chewy Louie...our yorkie mix that we adopted for Christmas. He has been a wonderful addition to our family.
The boys have been enjoying the SNOW and made two snow friends today "frosty" and "crystal" and Jake insists that they will never melt and be around forever and ever!
So excited to be back...be prepared for more blogging!
So this is what's going on in the Twigg Family household....I am once again expecting a little bundle due July 4th and we are ecstatic...and nervous. Whether it's the nerves, the hormones or a combination of each I have been sick, irritable and extremely tired. The good news, baby looks great and boys are excited and the campus doesn't seem to consider it a problem for us to stay here in our comfy little apartment so we truck on for now.
Christmas this year was peaceful and beautiful with a new addition to our family Chewy Louie...our yorkie mix that we adopted for Christmas. He has been a wonderful addition to our family.
The boys have been enjoying the SNOW and made two snow friends today "frosty" and "crystal" and Jake insists that they will never melt and be around forever and ever!
So excited to be back...be prepared for more blogging!
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tents, Butterflies and the coolness of being home
God has soooooooooooooo blessed me with the option of staying home with my kids...yes we live very poorly in funds but not in heart, fun and spirit and that's all that matters to me...I am having a blast (well most days) and when everything in the day seems to go crazy and I'm having a rough day I remind myself of those days I worked a real job and had to do all the housework and cooking and take care of the kids after a long day of work...KUDOS to you working mom's...
Today I had a rough morning so I threw all caution to the wind painted butterflies moved all the furniture around in the living room and built a MASSIVE tent while the boys were napping...HELLO best day ever!
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Sink Baths
I don't know what it is about sink baths that makes me want to have about 50 children.....ohhhh SO CUTE!
No one like God
So we are all riding in the car the other day and Jacob says...mommy what's this song saying (Our God is Greater) I said it says "there is no one like our God"...Jake says Mommy "why does no one like God...we love God right"
:) Oh my...
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